had a convo 2day with a good friend of mine, whois also my teammate with pool... about yesterday... really dunno what to say to him, i really feel bad... all this kind of pressure where the heck! is it coming from grrrrrrrrrrr then were talking something about... whats best for the team bla bla bla... came up in my mind to just so screw it.. im out.. think that might be the best for the team anyways to just not play, i really dont know anymore.... should i quit playing pool too? thought about it for like 6 months now, to just quit and take i dunno.. 6 months or a year break then start again.... although... it doesnt really screw up my schoolstuff, since i dont go pool that much anymore.... more like just sit and home and do nothing but behind the laptop... sighhh what to do... what to doo

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am i dropping out of school?? Do not wanna do anything anymore... dont wanna go to school... dont wanna make homework.. dont wanna no nothing! Feel really sad now :(

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arghhhhhhhhhhh everyone pls smack me in the head!!! Played friggin competition pool again last night and lost 5-3 only because i kept on missing the last friggin ball!!!!!!!!!!! wtf is going on with me??? Keep choking and choking... there's no need to be nervous? its just for funnnnnn arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh really yelled myself out the way back home... friggin unbelievable!! nooooooooooooooooooo i hateeeee myselfff... i really feel bad for my teammates and thinking about to quit maybe for a while and get my mental game straight first?

Xing: 33 is crazieee larrr! I dont have so much to tell since i got a boring life unlike herrr! But lately i only been blogging about the guy :D