Studied on and off all day... one hour study, one hour break.. works better dan straight on couple hours studying.. so im gonna keep using this method :) Tomorrow a remake(? Bern, help me out, i lost the word! Make the exam for 2nd time?) am confident i will pass this time, doesnt look that hard and its multiple choice too.. well has it advantage and disvantages... sometimes when its open questions, u can just write down what u think but when it comes to MC questions, ull see 2 look-a-like answers then u start questioning yourself what??? hehe. Like last semester there was this guy being all cocky about that he didnt study and just went in the classroom, filled all B´s in and he had a C???? whattt??? I cant believe this lmao, same exam i was making that time :( If i just knew before sighhhh :P

Got like my weekends for the next 2 months all planned out... pooltournaments, at my BF... i actually told my mom about it and she was quiet -_- said she prefered chinese siigghhh im just not a person that really is into asian? I mean there are no cute ones?? :D That´s what J said... U live in Netherlands, how many % chance is possible that ull find a cute dutch guy instead of asian?? Well gotta agree with that lar, anyways hour is almost over, gotta continue studying again hugssssss

Had to make this test for the carreer coaching crap... i totally agree with it. Check it out and u'll find out what kinda person Cherry/Manting xD Move your mouse over any color part and ull see

Just wanted to share this song i currently like:



Found out 3 of his songs ive been singing around everytime and all on same album, hahahaha didnt even looked for it back then

Nice huh now the clock goes an hour back, daylight saving or something like that? , only not when you can not sleep and wide awake at 9 in the morning and u find out your clock hasnt set up to daylight saving yet, which means 8 am -_- its blooowwwssss blehhh, or i could see i like this... can study an hour longer... yay?? i dont know anymore, i just really hate school at the moment, dont wanna do anything anymore and exams starting on monday :( I think i just need get the all the strenght i got now and only focus for the P. That's all i want now, i really dont care about the other 3 years, maybe when i get my p ill just ditch out... and work? Grrr i dont wanna do nothing? Just sit on my lazy azz and still get paid? hahahahha someone tell me if u find such job

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeks Exams starting larrr, the one on wednesday, i should be studying by now :( That's an exam of 6 months ago i didnt pass :( I HAVEEEEE TOOO PASSS NOW NO MATTER WHAT, or else i just keep taking em with me for the next period, more and more exams , doesnt feel right aiyaaa, Ill start studying on sunday, i promise myself, i have too! Yah, for sure i aint going to check him out saturday, cause he's coming here tomorrow :) Although its gonna be a short day, asked him this afternoon if he was gonna have dinner at his parents or we gonna eat together, said his mom called this morning and is expecting him :( So we're like only gonna play a couple hours of pool and have some quality time together, but thats ok... as long i can see him :) He's has to drive like an hour to come play here with me, yah i know one hour is nothing compared to some of u, cause your country is sooooo biiigggg!!! One hour is a lot here

Today had to go to school again for nothing! Yesterday i already traveled by train 2 hours to just get the hardcopy of the project to the teacher, but aparently there been some miscommunication cause he wanted to have the stuff mailed on thursday so he can check the stuff and if need ask us questions on friday... sooo that dudeee omggg he is always lateeee! We said 9 am, he walshed in at 9.25? Mannn and then he said, ohh my next college got dropped, i can check the stuff out quickly and do the question stuff so were like yeh fine whatever, just do it quickly, came back 10 min later.... wasnt good enough :S Some stuff we needed to print it out too but i had it on the cdrom... like 90% was one in Excel and no way hose im gonna print all that out, like 40 pages geeezzzz, dudeee think about the environment! Anyways he actually gave us time to correct the stuff and can have it done after the exams, in 2 weeks so thats kinda nice i guess? But still i dont like his personality! blehhhh

Heeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Yesterday had teamcompetition again and we won 9-0!!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAH yess even i won my match :D cheated a lil but yeah... i was 3-2 down, the guy had ball in hand and he used his cuetip to move the ball, thats a foul hahahaha and i explained it like 5 times and he didnt get it, went to his captain and asked, agreed and i had ball in hand, 8ball left, put it right in front of it and heehaaa made it 3-3 it was a race to 4 so was all or nothing, played pretty well last rack bad position sometimes, had my last ball and 8ball next to the rail but my last ball could still pass the rail and 8ball in the cornerpocket, if i missed, my ball would blocked his 8ball, or it did pocketed it and i had position for 8ball so i just played it like that and pocketed both balls for the match :D Im really happpyyyyy

So we play actually 6 matche, 3 x 9ball and 3 x 8ball... 1 point for each match, so 6 points for the matches +3 for the win or +1 if its tied like 3-3 +1 for both is 4-4 hihi We left immediately back to our homebase to celebrate, i had some mixes haha was really woohoooooooooo, texted my sweety that i finally won my first competition game, he was excited too :D Got home around 1 am and he was still online, talked to him for about an hour i think, i was really hyper lol, had like 3 vodka redbulls man, dizzynezz :D Said stuff last night to him that i normally wouldnt(when im not hyper) but i just had to say it hihi weeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaa. He has a tourney sunday, he said ill hear(hope) from ya, yah that doesnt look good in english hahaha what he actually meant it ill hear from ya and i hope u can come, put it in 1 sentence, yah dutch is nice huh :P

He knows i have exams next week, but the one i have on monday is not really that hard and the one on wednesday(match) im gonna ditch cause i havent done crap about it so i better focus on other ones and fail on 1 instead fail on all , so i might go check him out sunday but aint gonna tell him, gonna suprise him :) Maybe lar, i dunno, will see :D

Soooooo like i said in my 1-min-blog, had a great,fun weekend again with my guy :D I guess i can call him that now, can i? Saturday i went to The Hague then we would go to Rotterdam together so could get his cue's fixed, but before that... -__- one hour before leaving i checked the trainschedules and there i see that they were fixing the rails between Amersfoort and Utrecht. So everything between that route had to go to Hilversum(yessss where 33 lives :D) then to Utrecht and from Utrecht i had to get on another train which to straigh to The Hague. BUT when i was in Amersfoort they call it in through the speakers that ppl whois headed to The Hague or Rotterdam should better go through Schiphol(our airport :P) then to The Hague, so i rushed out of the waiting room and got into the train, so finally in Schiphol.. there's a train that goes to The Hague HS, so they call it, not to the central station, which he lives 10 min from :S So blahh i called him and told him that, he said would come pick me up at that creepy small trainstation :S sooooo enough about the worse part of the weekend!!

Went to his apartment to drop my stuff and we walked to another small station in The Hague called Laan van NOI but the good thing is that this small station takes us to a small station in Rotterdam where the cue repairshop is just above it, so thats good lar. We just played some games there when the guy was fixing his cues. So we left around 5-ish to his homebase where he plays pool to play there cause its a lot cheaper. Then his bestfriend called in to see when he could picke up his cues(yesss J had to took his cues with for repair) later he said if we wanted pizza for dinner(i know its not good) but yeah we said yes and we went to his place. Pretty nice place he got there. So i actually thought that Voorburg was like 15 min driving or something like that but it was just the other side of that small station Laan van NOI?? soooo weird, left is The Hague and right is Voorburg, so they actually live pretty close to each other. Finally got there, and J couldnt handle himself and started teasing him about everything, he always teases everyone! Including meeeeee blehhh... had pizza, some small talk and we left to the poolroom.... i beat the guys up! hahahhaa was playing awesome :D Left around 9-ish to catch a movie with J at home, saw Commando first at TV, with Arnie Schwarzsnegger, damn the guy hasnt change a bit? except for more wrinkles and grey hair, so many muscles mannn! After that we watched The Bourn Ultimatum, ya'll should know that movie lar, not much to say about it. So we sat next to each other, dohh!! , and he suddenly just put his arms around me, so i just scoots(?? no idea how to spell but what i mean is to move a bit closer to him) up next to him and just watched the movie, playing with our hands at times and gave me a tender kiss hihi now i think about it was so sweet lar(still is) He was pretty tired, i think he even fell asleep the last 30 min of the movie. he worked like 18 hours the day before, cause there was a wedding and he only slept for couple hours, poor him. After movie was ova we just sat there in the couch cuddling and such :P and i gave him a goodnight kiss and went to bed, he was sleeping in the couch for the right order :P

Next day we headed to Utrecht for the pooltournament, best friend went with and he even made it to the Semi-finals, wtg S! Me and J didnt pass the round-robin(where u are with a group of 6 people and have to play against all 5 and see who has the most wins) I won only one, was playing really bad blahhhhh but still i had a great time there watching some games, including Alex Lely! He was a great international playing, quit playing international tournament and Dutch Championships but still plays the small local tournaments, like this one. He moved and now lives like 15 min away from this poolroom. Lovely to see how he can still play that good and not play that much anymore. Besides that had a goodtime with J too ofcourse and for a min we actually had a serious talk, telling me i should tell my mom where i really am(i said i would be at a female friend hehe) cause he doesnt want me to lie to my mom and such. I dont really know yet when or how i should tell her... when it's the right time, i mean i dont really know if its for real now, reading the above, what do u think? u tell me? Even if it was, i still have no idea how she would react, cause he'5 years older then me, i really don't care about the age, its about him right, but u know how some parents are. And he's dutch guy, for some reason i really think she prefers asian. Like 2 months again, don't really remember, some in the family found out my brother has a girlfriend and asked about it at my mom and i overheard her on the phone sayin that she's not an oldtimer anymore and that she is open, i don't really know what she would say when i tell her: Hey mom i got a bf, he's dutch and he's 26 years aahhhhhh i really like him u know and if it does really work out, it would be sorta like a long-distance one cause i think i said so before already, he's a chef at a restaurant and works like 12 hours a day, only free in the weekend but that's when the most tournaments are held. In a month he has to compete at least a weekend and 1 sunday for the National Ranking and teamcompetition. With the NR i can deal with cause i started to plan to compete to and he said he doesnt wanna play in his district anymore cause its soooo busy, would come to my district, should a lot less i think, its new this season in this district so yeah will see about that. So then we have only 2 weekends left lar. Ahhh i dunnoo lar think ill just let it flow and see what happends.

Today i went the poolroom again and i'll just pretend i havent been there, was playing aweful again, when will i get some balance in game??? grrrrrrrrrrrr So i finally received our teamshirt for the teamcompetition damnz! why did we gave them the sizes of the shirts if they are only getting size L for everyone? Hellooo im a small lil girl, i just tried it on wtf! i can drown in this shirt :S its the friggin large geeeeeeeezzz i could tuck it in my pants but i would look like a weirdo and if i dont, its like im wearing a dress :S Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! Had a great, exciting, fun weekend :D I think its offcially on now lar? I dunno :D

Weeehaaaaaaaa almost weekend and im gonna see the guy again :D At first we said would meet in the early afternoon cause he had to go to Rotterdam to get some of his cue's fixed and didnt know what time he could be there so yeah i was like sure no problem....but last night he asked if i would wanted to come with, go to The Hague first then go by car to Rotterdam hihi sure i would, got nothing else to do anyways in the morning and i can some have more quality time with him? hihi im looking forward to it :D

2day went to Amsterdam to get some stuff.. .arghhhhhhh me and my mom.. 6 bags!!!! so heavyy lar, my hands are hurting lar.... help meeeeeeeeeeeee

Had a good training with the captain... played a race of 8 and 9 ball first, then we played scotch doubles 8 ball... ur on the same team, after every shot u switch players... was really good practice... now i see how he thinks and tells me what he wants and where to end with the ball, im like yeah totally right.. if i had to play myself i wouldnt think of that... also i found out after 2,5 friggin years that i used the wrong english all the time HAHAHAHAH opposite :S so instead of left i used right and otherway round... figures why i cant get the balls moving... so this other teammate and good friend showed me that, and i used it 2day im like yeah friggin hell thats actually what i had in mind and it did it tooo!!!!!!!! yayyy!!! so stupid but well better late then never right? After practice played a race to 8 8ball and i won 6-5 from the captain :D Feeled good... and also decided to only play 8ball for now... no idea why i wanted to play 9ball instead.. since my position play is soooo badd... 8ball is a good alternative, so many choices larr haaaizzz u girls prolly dont know what im all talking about hahahaha

Anywayz tomorrow gonna watch Joeri play, they won 7-2 2day :) but he did lost his match :( Hopefully he'll play better when im there :D

Heeeeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... feel a bit better now i think, just talked to the guy and he makes me happy :) Said my new cue prolly could shipped with the shipment that is almost ready.. hope so lar! Just asked him if it was okay if i come watch the poolmathes sunday.. at first i wanted to surprise him and just show up there but then i thought, what if he really IS surprised and doesnt pot nothing anymore, i would feel bad :( so i just asked lar and he was really happy about it too... saying that he would play even more better! Soooo im gonna hang out in the poolroom sunday and watch him play :)

had a convo 2day with a good friend of mine, whois also my teammate with pool... about yesterday... really dunno what to say to him, i really feel bad... all this kind of pressure where the heck! is it coming from grrrrrrrrrrr then were talking something about... whats best for the team bla bla bla... came up in my mind to just so screw it.. im out.. think that might be the best for the team anyways to just not play, i really dont know anymore.... should i quit playing pool too? thought about it for like 6 months now, to just quit and take i dunno.. 6 months or a year break then start again.... although... it doesnt really screw up my schoolstuff, since i dont go pool that much anymore.... more like just sit and home and do nothing but behind the laptop... sighhh what to do... what to doo

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am i dropping out of school?? Do not wanna do anything anymore... dont wanna go to school... dont wanna make homework.. dont wanna no nothing! Feel really sad now :(

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arghhhhhhhhhhh everyone pls smack me in the head!!! Played friggin competition pool again last night and lost 5-3 only because i kept on missing the last friggin ball!!!!!!!!!!! wtf is going on with me??? Keep choking and choking... there's no need to be nervous? its just for funnnnnn arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh really yelled myself out the way back home... friggin unbelievable!! nooooooooooooooooooo i hateeeee myselfff... i really feel bad for my teammates and thinking about to quit maybe for a while and get my mental game straight first?

Xing: 33 is crazieee larrr! I dont have so much to tell since i got a boring life unlike herrr! But lately i only been blogging about the guy :D

Haven t been out partying for like almost 6 years now and loosen myself out(i know i know shush :P) begin of the weekend i was talking to this guy about drinking and stuff and out of the blue he invited me to go out Saturday night... said yes immediately, im sure it would be real fun hihi... rest of the week ive been only looking forward to the day... Thursday and Friday i was still a bit sick and thinking about not to go :( but good thing i was better the Saturday morning and i started packing stuff since i was staying the night there cause we would go to a pool tournament the day after and from his place it would save me a lot of time and money or else i have to travel up and done, besides no trains go back to my home at 2 am

So i was there around 8... he picked me up from the station and we just had a lil talk and checking stuff on the internet. Around 9ish we went to the poolroom and played some bit aaaa i was playing awefull hahhaa missing the 8ball over and over again, he asked me if i not wanted to in.. i said nooo winning is boring HAHAH :D Left around 11ish back to had a drink watch some tv and left around 12 to hit the clubs... went to these clubs where u do no have to pay fee... can just walk in , have a drink, dance some bit... if u dun like it and music is crap.. just leave and hit the next one.. thats what we did.. music was ok... disco music.. we danced a bit then we were chilling on these loungesofa's after some time we left and went to 2 other clubs... 1 again disco music , had a drink and left again and the last one HAHAHA hardrock music omg so weird.. disco , disco then hardrock :D Decided to hit 1 more club if it was busy and there was no one! Everyone was actually leaving and we wanted to go in? nahh we just walked back home(no tram's anymore at that time) omggg i think whole night i had like 5/6 vodka redbulls and 2 ouzo at home(thats a greek alcohol thing, its like a dropshot) soo the whole way we walked back home i had to peee arghhh was a pretty long walk and i wasnt really feeling drunk or something just bit fuzzy and i wasnt walking straight cause i kept on bumping him and he pushed me more to the right hahaha was so funny :D The min the opend the door i rushed into the toilet .... man what a relief thinking we started a movie around 230... wasnt tired at all cause of the alcohol i think... movie ended at 5 and decided to just go to bed... slept in his bed , he took the sofa...

Ok normally im not a real animal fan but he has a cute kitty Nina but she did scare me the morning after! Normally when he sleeps in bed the kitty jumps on him when its time to wake u, sorta his alarm haha so she ALMOST jumped on me but i already woke and there we was sitting next to the bed... and i almost like jumped out of bed and she got scared and ran away hahahah.. think i only slept like 3 hours and still not tired at all

So we were going to this pooltournament, by train... was quite often most of the time and i didnt really had something to say neither does he... and most of the time i just says uh huh uh huh yehh i kno i understand such feedback -__- and i figured, looking in the window that he was looking at me sometimes :P still need to tell him that and see what he says :D Normally i would take the subway but we just walked there, like 15 min's through the whole centre and i was tireddddddddddddd of walking and we finally were there.. cause i had to hold my cues too thats like 10KG i think... walking 15 min with 10KG noooo wayyy hoose i will ever do that again :P hihi so we started playing some bit till tournament starts.. i was playing awefull good??? man been a long time i play like this and i should be playing stable like this everytime so after sometime he said: alcohol works good huh we both laughed :D i said: yehhh think just had to losen myself up after so long.. helped a lot as u can see so when the actually tournament started i still kept on playing this good... won 3 matches 2-0 and 1 2-1 and lost other 2 with 2-1.. stupid format this time... race to 2, first who wins 2 racks u lose the match.. really short normally its a race to 3 and thats really the minimum so we were discussing this with the person who organised but he's really stubborn and wouldnt listen and said no no this way is the best this and that so we quit talking to him and said if next time would be like this we would stay gone... but the barpeople and the tournament is actually quite cool and cozy, just the format really sux... we discussed this with the owner of the poolroom too and he agreed with us so we will see what format next time will be. So we left together that evening WITH THE SUBWAY hahaha and had to say goodbye at the station since were going on differe routes... gaved each other 3 kisses like normal, said some stuff.. cannot remember what then he gaved me another kiss :D what i actually wanted to do cause of the cue thing what i blogged before about... so when i came home we talked some bit on MSN and i said about the kiss thing and that that was already the commission he said he felt being faked hahhhahaha... really cool and cute guy... in 2 weeks another tournament and planning to go there again on saturday and this time to watch movies at home instead of hitting the nights... looking forward again :D

weeeeeeeeeeeheeeeeeeeeeeeee welcome to my new blog HAHAHAHA i know everythings looks just the time, intended too. Wonder why i changed? Cause i started using Gmail and it can be combined with blogspot or something like that. So everything i log into my mail, then wanna go to blogspot, it automaticly logs in with my gmail emailaddy, by my orginal blogger is a yahoo so, so annoying have to sign out and sign in again... and cannot changed email addy cause thats where u log in with... so long story short... just made a new blogger, posted the 4 recent posts here too and will start blogging from here aissh?

Sooo today i went to Rotterdam lar, to get my bday cake!
its a chestnut cake, 栗子蛋糕

No no its not my bday yet, its 2morrow actually but 2morrow i dont have time to go all the way to Rotterdam to get it cause i have to be somewhere else later the day so i dont wanna rush back home so just got it 2day. And since its already there, all freshly made I JUST CUT IT AND ATE IT hahahahahaha. Tastes okay lar, expected something else, had a chestnut cake in Hongkong too and that one was soooooo delicoussss this one was normal, was expensive AHHHHH

Arghhhhh slept so badly lah lastnight, everytime i looked at my cell it was an hour later... 01.15, 02.18, 3.11 and so on till it was 6.45 time to get up, soooo tired now... am actually at school now, had to come here 2 hours earlier for a friggin meeting of 15 min! Well better this then on the friday my day off, have colleges till uhmmm 15.30 i think.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh u know u know u knowwwww i talked to "the guy" for about 2 hours on MSN lah yesterday, it was so funnnyyyyyy and chummy? ha?? i looked this up in dictionary, never heard of this word lar.. anywayz so we were talking about stuff... i had him to go buy me a cue from someone where he could get discount , then he was talking about the total price:

he: its about 365 plus 100 for the extension so total about 465.
me: ohh well its a good deal lar for this cue
he: well add up 10% comission for me OR id be satisfied with a kiss
he: i scared ya huh??? didnt see that coming
me: hahahaha no no not scared but indeed didnt saw it coming, alrighty ill see ya next week ill give ya the kiss since it will cost me less
then he gave me the shy smiley

sooo now my question, what does the "kiss" exactly mean leh... kiss on the cheek? kiss on the lips? u tell me, whichever get most votes i do that next week haha :D Made a poll somewhere here, go look for it and vote.

So in the end i was like:

me: here ill give u the kiss in advance(gave him the wink kiss u know in MSN, that big one, normally we already did (K) )

he: nooooooo next week, a real one
me: o u meant that? sorry u didnt said anything and i already gave now and not giving again
he: :(
me: okok we will see , maybe next week and the day when i get my cue
he: *blushes*

HAHAHAHAHAH think i really likey him *blushes*

Aiyo, college starts soon lar, gonna go now!

I FEEL GOOD
James Brown

Whoa-oa-oa! I feel good, I knew that I would, now
I feel good, I knew that I would, now
So good, so good, I got you

Whoa! I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, I got you

{ sax, two licks to bridge }

When I hold you in my arms
I know that I can't do no wrong
and when I hold you in my arms
My love won't do you no harm

and I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, I got you

{ sax, two licks to bridge }

When I hold you in my arms
I know that I can't do no wrong
and when I hold you in my arms
My love can't do me no harm

and I feel nice, like sugar and spice
I feel nice, like sugar and spice
So nice, so nice, I got you

Whoa! I feel good, I knew that I would, now
I feel good, I knew that I would
So good, so good, I got you
So good, so good, I got you
So good, so good, I got you
HEY!!

Today i played pool with "the" guy. He actually came all the way here from The Hague(thats about an hour driving) just to play pool with me... well on the way he had to make a stop to get some wine... and i needed to test his cue and he thought it might be better if i do that in my own environment, better feel and such... dont know if it was the cue or him but i played pretty good , good feeling in the cue. He was a bit early tho here to pick me up and i didnt expected that and the poolroom wasnt open yet so i just invited him to come in.... TOTALLY NOT EXPECTED living room was all messy ahhhhhhhh!!!! but he was still in the car and had to get his stuff out of his car so i had a bit of time to grab the mess and hide them somewhere hihi :D So yeah there we sit, we just talked a bit till the poolroom was open and we drove there. Played some good pool 2day, really, had some good laughs with him too , he's such a cutey pie :)

So i said i was testing his cue cause im about to buy a new one, a lot of money im gonna spend so need to check it out if its really something for me, tested some other too throughout the weeks and i quite sure this is the right one. I wont tell u how much it cost cause ull say im crazy HAHAHAHA

Had my first match last night with pool in teamcompetition, was playing 9ball and lost it 5-2 :( Think i was just bein nervous and all, had a good start and won 2 racks then i started missing.. everytime i get a chance i wether just mis, or i pocket it then i made myself a great safety WTH it sucks hell :( Next week gotta play in Woerden and i already know they are not so good players, will that help me play better? or will i just be relaxed and lose at last? sighh

Is he the right one???

it just me or just like any other girl? Check out a boy and see if he's the right one? Do we make a good couple or not.. even tho u dont really know him yet?? Like the same guy ive been talking about before told me last time. I do have a feeling he thinks the same in some kinda way but last time he said: Youre a cool chick and having fun when we see each other(altho we dont talk much in real life) but how long we know each other? Maybe when more time goes by.. what does that exactly mean? Was i right or wrong bout my guts? Argghhhh, like i said before we only talk like 20-30 mins on msn every night and now i havent talked to him for 4 days, kinda miss him kwa? :P